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Blogging was my Salvation, but also my Damnation (A Brief Update)

Almost 10 months ago, I began my journey as a blogger. I’d been stifled by the idleness of having had nothing meaningful to do during my spare time, but this all changed when I ventured into blogging. I doted on the concept of expressing myself on a professional yet personalised stage, and it quickly became the ideal supplement to placate my woes. Except, this only lasted 8 months. Roughly 2 months ago, I made the decision to take a step back from blogging for awhile. I wanted to revisit the unremarkable placidity of my bygone days. I wanted to express myself without being confined by the rules that I’d set for myself. I wanted to liberate myself from the shackles that had saved me. It’s all ironic, isn’t it?

Why I decided to take a break

The biggest goal I’d set for myself before my hiatus had been to publish daily posts or even weekly posts of my writing, but I was soon forced to acknowledge the reality that such a goal had been too daunting of a challenge for me given the commitments I had and with my temperament. Writing became a mental struggle. It was exhausting, and it only served to add more stress. I detested writing for the sake of it, and eventually started being disapproving of my own writing. By then, I knew I had to take some time away from it all.

What the break did for me

This hiatus gave my mind respite from the usual strains. I no longer felt the need to obsess with critically analysing everything I watch. I was once more graced by the joy of letting myself be carried away by a show, immersing in its enchanting storytelling and all else it had to offer. It felt natural and addictive. I no longer forced myself to think about what this or that signified in the grand scheme of things, like what a protagonist’s choice of weapon symbolised or what the heroine’s favourite colour hinted at. I managed to find more time to spend on other things, like sleep! But more than anything else, these past few months has let me realise how far I had strayed from my initial ambitions. It reminded me of why I wanted to write in the first place.

So, what now?

Well, I’ve realised that writing to me meant more than just putting out posts on a frequent basis. I’ve always wanted to write to the best of my ability, to write with a vigour and passion that would awe a reader. But the reality for someone like me is that it takes time, persistence and in fact the right amount of interest to be fully invested in expressing myself properly. As much as I get really uncomfortable leaving the website unattended for long periods of time, It might be healthier for me to only post my writing when I know that I can write satisfactorily. Quality over quantity I guess. We’ll see.

Thanks for reading, truly!

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21 comments

      1. You’re welcome. I’m glad to hear that. I’m doing alright even though I’ve been very busy with work and other things. Unfortunately, I haven’t watched or reviewed anime since Hikaru no Go last month. Also, thanks for checking out my Camp de Thiaroye review!

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      2. Hmm I do hope you’re having enough time to rest well every so often. I myself have only watched 2 anime since March. No problem! That was a fantastic review. It was a fascinating read.

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  1. That makes perfect sense to me and it’s something I think about a lot. I never set out to be a season anime blogger and originally just focused on season reviews and my fiction writing. Lately, it’s been almost all blogging and my fiction writing has taken a back seat. I’m currently thinking about the best way to find some balance. Good luck coming to a decision and I’m sure it’ll all work out in the end.

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  2. I can understand to a degree as I am one of the most inconsistent bloggers out their. I just say write what makes you happy no matter how long it takes. Take care and be safe, looking forward to the next post no matter what it is.

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  3. Welcome back, Tiger!! I guess what you experienced was basically a small (hopefully) blogging burn out. Taking breaks really work wonders!! Either way, great to see you back 🙂

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  4. What you just wrote is exactly how I have been feeling as well. I am new to blogging, but always loved writing. Making a schedule and keeping up with regularly posts became tedious and exhausting. Self-care is more important than anything, in my opinion. Take care of yourself and lets be happy writing.

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    1. Thank you! Yeah, I guess these sentiments are common among us newer bloggers. Writing is indeed my favourite way to express myself, but I was naive to expect it to be all roses and sunshines, especially when you’re on that grind. You take care yourself!

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